My Top 10 Movies 2013

Here we go again.. Last year, started from January, I actually wrote down all the movies I have watched during the year and rated them down by myself in 5 categories. The acting, the movies effect, the moral, the story-line, and of course, my favoritism score. ^^

So, here is my top 10 (in order) 😉

1. Insidious 2 (rate 9.18/10)

2. The Hunger Games 2 (rate 9/10)

3. Red 2 (rate 8.9/10)

4. Captain Phillips (rate 8.84/10)

5. The Great Gatsby (rate 8.82/10)

6. The Hobbit (rate 8.72/10)

7. 2 Guns (rate 8.64/10)

8. The Call (rate 8.6/10)

9. Rush (rate 8.6/10)

10. Evil dead (rate 8.56/10)

There are a lot of great movies this year! But Top 10 only my personal interests. No hard-feeling please… Movies like Hangover part 3, Last Vegas, RIPD, the wolverine, Identity Thief, Fast and Furious 6 are near my top 10. But sadly, they are not. Not because they were not good, but my personal feeling is my greatest concern. Movies are not touching enough, hardly to caught my attention. And, that’s not the only reason. Statistically, I actually watched 71 movies (not including the one I watched on dvds!) lol.. yeah, I watched 71 movies in cinema this year only! Unbelievable, right?

But what makes insidious 2 rank top was the story-line. Not only creepy, but I was really really impressed with how the writer’s brain works. Normally we would be able to guess how the story could develop, but this one caught me off-guard. Other than goosebumps, it’s really a breath-taking movie!



23 Things to learn about how mature you are

As I turned 27 this year, I can’t stop thinking about how mature am I in person. Recently, I found an article which is written in Chinese and I would like to share it here to my dearest “count-able by fingers followers” about how to measure we really are in person and how others see us. The series statement below reflects how mature we are in social-life and how mature we are when handling problems. If most of your answer “YES”, I guess you are doing pretty well (i will be revealing my own answers though ^.^). So, here we go :

1. When there is a question you don’t want to answer from anybody, look straight into his/her eyes, smile and silent – YES.

2. Chest and back straight when walking. When you are down with mood and no mood to greet anyone, smile and walk away – YES

3. Do remember : about good friends. When you are doing great, they are happy for you from the depth of their heart, when you are not doing well, they will worry for you – YES

4. Do what you have to do, and ready to be responsible for your action. Remind yourself right from the start, there is no regret in life, there will only be plan B. – YES

5. Whatever situation you are in, do what you have to do and give it a 100% – YES, although there is a limit when we are doing things, give it your best is important and that matters.

6. Accept yourself as a “small little me”, but in your eyes, you can accept the “big big world” – YES

7. When you love something, set it free. If it’s come back to you, it belongs to you. If not, it’s never been yours – absolute YES. I used to think that we should pursue someone we love and not giving up. That’s true too, but when you tried hard enough and mutual, it’s time to set it free and see if it will come back to you. No use clinging onto something that has never been yours anyway.

8. Don’t try to give yourself any excuses, nobody wants to listen to your explaining when mistakes takes place – YES. That’s why i hate explaining! lol

9. Don’t lose your temper easily, nobody owe you anything – 50-50. I tend to lose my temper sometimes.. I need to control that.

10. Never tell lies, because people will find out one day – YES, even you will be blamed or framed. You still need to tell the truth

11. Don’t underestimate anyone – YES.

12. You don’t have too many audience, don’t be too tired – YES!

13. You can’t forget what happened in the past, but you have to let it go – YES.

14. Whatever people says to you, remember it in your mind. Whatever you tell yourself, keep it in your heart -Learning to do that. Sometimes a little bit difficult for me to remember what I told myself. haha!

15. There are many levels in social, a lot of unfairness. Don’t pout, because there is no use to pout. Do your best, that matters – YES

16. You are never as important as you thought you are, forever. – No! I’m important for myself. Yes! to others. I know i’m not as important for others as I thought I am. Well.. yes. I just want to live my life well and happy. 🙂

17. Whatever problems can be solved with money, it’s not a problem – YES

18. Whenever you say “I love you”, be sincere. Whenever you say, “I’m sorry”, look into the other party’s eyes. – YES

19. Never judge a book by its cover. Talk slowly, Think fast – YES

20. Don’t accept the things that doesn’t belong to you, no matter how much you love it, you have to learn to let go. – Well, I’m not sure about this. If I love that “things”, shouldn’t I find way to make it mine or  “buy” it? Unless it’s a human-being, otherwise, I won’t let it go easily!!

21. Spend some time alone – YES. Despite most of the time spent at work, gym and gathering, what I really enjoy most is spending some time alone without being disturbed. Once in a few weeks or months, I would totally shut down my cell, not bringing my watch, go outside (anywhere possible) to enjoy time alone at the beach, mall, a restaurant or just chilling at home with dvds. It turned out, it really worked for de-stress and you don’t have to worry about what you have to do for the rest of the day. You have plenty of time to reflects own-self, your dreams, and what you really want to do. Trust me, you will be able to think better than those days with gadget, computers, and disturbing call

22. Don’t ever think that world is owing you anything, the fact is, you haven’t done enough – YES, and so true

23. Work hard, work harder, and just a bit work harder, and your dreams will come true! YES

Honestly, after corresponding the statements above, I feel it’s more like a motivating quotes and lessons than a test to measure how mature you are. But well, it’s all up to you to decide. What I’m sure if most of your answers are “yes” like me, you are a positive person. 😉

10 Things Most Americans don’t know about America

One of my American friend posted this, it’s an article from

Tell me if it’s true..

Imagine you have a brother and he’s an alcoholic. He has his moments, but you keep your distance from him. You don’t mind him for the occasional family gathering or holiday. You still love him. But you don’t want to be around him.

This is how I lovingly describe my current relationship with the United States. The United States is my alcoholic brother. And although I will always love him, I don’t want to be near him at the moment.

I know that’s harsh, but I really feel my home country is not in a good place these days. That’s not a socio-economic statement (although that’s on the decline as well), but rather a cultural one.

I realize it’s going to be impossible to write sentences like the ones above without coming across as a raging prick, so let me try to soften the blow to my American readers with an analogy:

You know when you move out of your parents’ house and live on your own, how you start hanging out with your friends’ families and you realize that actually, your family was a little screwed up? Stuff you always assumed was normal your entire childhood, it turns out was pretty weird and may have actually fucked you up a little bit. You know, dad thinking it was funny to wear a Santa Claus hat in his underwear every Christmas or the fact that you and your sister slept in the same bed until you were 22, or that your mother routinely cried over a bottle of wine while listening to Elton John.

The point is we don’t really get perspective on what’s close to us until we spend time away from it. Just like you didn’t realize the weird quirks and nuances of your family until you left and spent time with others, the same is true for country and culture. You often don’t see what’s messed up about your country and culture until you step outside of it.

And so even though this article is going to come across as fairly scathing, I want my American readers to know: some of the stuff we do, some of the stuff that we always assumed was normal, it’s kind of screwed up. And that’s OK. Because that’s true with every culture. It’s just easier to spot it in others (i.e., the French) so we don’t always notice it in ourselves.

So as you read this article, know that I’m saying everything with tough love, the same tough love with which I’d sit down and lecture an alcoholic family member. It doesn’t mean I don’t love you. It doesn’t mean there aren’t some awesome things about you (BRO, THAT’S AWESOME!!!). And it doesn’t mean I’m some saint either, because god knows I’m pretty screwed up (I’m American, after all). There are just a few things you need to hear. And as a friend, I’m going to tell them to you.

And to my foreign readers, get your necks ready, because this is going to be a nod-a-thon.

A Little “What The Hell Does This Guy Know?” Background: I’ve lived in different parts of the US, both the deep south and the northeast. I have visited most of the US’s 50 states. I’ve spent the past three years living almost entirely outside of the United States. I’ve lived in multiple countries in Europe, Asia and South America. I’ve visited over 40 countries in all and have spent far more time with non-Americans than with Americans during this period. I speak multiple languages. I’m not a tourist. I don’t stay in resorts and rarely stay in hostels. I rent apartments and try to integrate myself into each country I visit as much as possible. So there.

(Note: I realize these are generalizations and I realize there are always exceptions. I get it. You don’t have to post 55 comments telling me that you and your best friend are exceptions. If you really get that offended from some guy’s blog post, you may want to double-check your life priorities.)

OK, we’re ready now. 10 things Americans don’t know about America


Unless you’re speaking with a real estate agent or a prostitute, chances are they’re not going to be excited that you’re American. It’s not some badge of honor we get to parade around. Yes, we had Steve Jobs and Thomas Edison, but unless you actually are Steve Jobs or Thomas Edison (which is unlikely) then most people around the world are simply not going to care. There are exceptions of course. And those exceptions are called English and Australian people. Whoopdie-fucking-doo.

As Americans, we’re brought up our entire lives being taught that we’re the best, we did everything first and that the rest of the world follows our lead. Not only is this not true, but people get irritated when you bring it to their country with you. So don’t.


Despite the occasional eye-rolling, and complete inability to understand why anyone would vote for George W. Bush, people from other countries don’t hate us either. In fact — and I know this is a really sobering realization for us — most people in the world don’t really think about us or care about us. I know, that sounds absurd, especially with CNN and Fox News showing the same 20 angry Arab men on repeat for ten years straight. But unless we’re invading someone’s country or threatening to invade someone’s country (which is likely), then there’s a 99.99% chance they don’t care about us. Just like we rarely think about the people in Bolivia or Mongolia, most people don’t think about us much. They have jobs, kids, house payments — you know, those things called lives — to worry about. Kind of like us.

Americans tend to assume that the rest of the world either loves us or hates us (this is actually a good litmus test to tell if someone is conservative or liberal). The fact is, most people feel neither. Most people don’t think much about us.

Remember that immature girl in high school, who every little thing that happened to her meant that someone either hated her or was obsessed with her; who thought every teacher who ever gave her a bad grade was being totally unfair and everything good that happened to her was because of how amazing she was? Yeah, we’re that immature high school girl.


For all of our talk about being global leaders and how everyone follows us, we don’t seem to know much about our supposed “followers.” They often have completely different takes on history than we do. Here were some brain-stumpers for me: the Vietnamese believe the Vietnam War was about China (not us), Hitler was primarily defeated by Russia (not us), Native Americans were wiped out largely disease and plague (not us), and the American Revolution was “won” because the British cared more about beating France (not us). Notice a running theme here?

(Hint: It’s not all about us.)

We did not invent democracy. We didn’t even invent modern democracy. There were parliamentary systems in England and other parts of Europe over a hundred years before we created government. In a recent survey of young Americans, 63% could not find Iraq on a map (despite being at war with them), and 54% did not know Sudan was a country in Africa. Yet, somehow we’re positive that everyone else looks up to us.


There’s a saying about English-speakers. We say “Go fuck yourself,” when we really mean “I like you,” and we say “I like you,” when we really mean “Go fuck yourself.”

Outside of getting shit-housed drunk and screaming “I LOVE YOU, MAN!”, open displays of affection in American culture are tepid and rare. Latin and some European cultures describe us as “cold” and “passionless” and for good reason. In our social lives we don’t say what we mean and we don’t mean what we say.

In our culture, appreciation and affection are implied rather than spoken outright. Two guy friends call each other names to reinforce their friendship; men and women tease and make fun of each other to imply interest. Feelings are almost never shared openly and freely. Consumer culture has cheapened our language of gratitude. Something like, “It’s so good to see you” is empty now because it’s expected and heard from everybody.

In dating, when I find a woman attractive, I almost always walk right up to her and tell her that a) I wanted to meet her, and b) she’s beautiful. In America, women usually get incredibly nervous and confused when I do this. They’ll make jokes to defuse the situation or sometimes ask me if I’m part of a TV show or something playing a prank. Even when they’re interested and go on dates with me, they get a bit disoriented when I’m so blunt with my interest. Whereas, in almost every other culture approaching women this way is met with a confident smile and a “Thank you.”


If you’re extremely talented or intelligent, the US is probably the best place in the world to live. The system is stacked heavily to allow people of talent and advantage to rise to the top quickly.

The problem with the US is that everyone thinks they are of talent and advantage. As John Steinbeck famously said, the problem with poor Americans is that “they don’t believe they’re poor, but rather temporarily embarrassed millionaires.” It’s this culture of self-delusion that allows America to continue to innovate and churn out new industry more than anyone else in the world. But this shared delusion also unfortunately keeps perpetuating large social inequalities and the quality of life for the average citizen lower than most other developed countries. It’s the price we pay to maintain our growth and economic dominance.

In my Guide to Wealth, I defined being wealthy as, “Having the freedom to maximize one’s life experiences.” In those terms, despite the average American having more material wealth than citizens of most other countries (more cars, bigger houses, nicer televisions), their overall quality of life suffers in my opinion. American people on average work more hours with less vacation, spend more time commuting every day, and are saddled with over $10,000 of debt. That’s a lot of time spent working and buying crap and little time or disposable income for relationships, activities or new experiences.


In 2010, I got into a taxi in Bangkok to take me to a new six-story cineplex. It was accessible by metro, but I chose a taxi instead. On the seat in front of me was a sign with a wifi password. Wait, what? I asked the driver if he had wifi in his taxi. He flashed a huge smile. The squat Thai man, with his pidgin English, explained that he had installed it himself. He then turned on his new sound system and disco lights. His taxi instantly became a cheesy nightclub on wheels… with free wifi.

If there’s one constant in my travels over the past three years, it has been that almost every place I’ve visited (especially in Asia and South America) is much nicer and safer than I expected it to be. Singapore is pristine. Hong Kong makes Manhattan look like a suburb. My neighborhood in Colombia is nicer than the one I lived in in Boston (and cheaper).

As Americans, we have this naïve assumption that people all over the world are struggling and way behind us. They’re not. Sweden and South Korea have more advanced high speed internet networks. Japan has the most advanced trains and transportation systems. Norwegians make more money. The biggest and most advanced plane in the world is flown out of Singapore. The tallest buildings in the world are now in Dubai and Shanghai. Meanwhile, the US has the highest incarceration rate in the world.

What’s so surprising about the world is how unsurprising most of it is. I spent a week with some local guys in Cambodia. You know what their biggest concerns were? Paying for school, getting to work on time, and what their friends were saying about them. In Brazil, people have debt problems, hate getting stuck in traffic and complain about their overbearing mothers. Every country thinks they have the worst drivers. Every country thinks their weather is unpredictable. The world becomes, err… predictable.


Not only are we emotionally insecure as a culture, but I’ve come to realize how paranoid we are about our physical security. You don’t have to watch Fox News or CNN for more than 10 minutes to hear about how our drinking water is going to kill us, our neighbor is going to rape our children, some terrorist in Yemen is going to kill us because we didn’t torture him, Mexicans are going to kill us, or some virus from a bird is going to kill us. There’s a reason we have more guns than people.

In the US, security trumps everything, even liberty. We’re paranoid.

I’ve probably been to 10 countries now that friends and family back home told me explicitly not to go because someone was going to kill me, kidnap me, stab me, rob me, rape me, sell me into sex trade, give me HIV, or whatever else. None of that has happened. I’ve never been robbed and I’ve walked through some of the shittiest parts of Asia, Latin America and Eastern Europe.

In fact, the experience has been the opposite. In countries like Russia, Colombia or Guatemala, people were so friendly it actually scared me. Some stranger in a bar would invite me to his house for a bar-b-que with his family, a random person on the street would offer to show me around and give me directions to a store I was trying to find. My American instincts were always that, “Wait, this guy is going to try to rob me or kill me,” but they never did. They were just insanely friendly.


I’ve noticed that the way we Americans communicate is usually designed to create a lot of attention and hype. Again, I think this is a product of our consumer culture: the belief that something isn’t worthwhile or important unless it’s perceived to be the best (BEST EVER!!!) or unless it gets a lot of attention (see: every reality-television show ever made).

This is why Americans have a peculiar habit of thinking everything is “totally awesome,” and even the most mundane activities were “the best thing ever!” It’s the unconscious drive we share for importance and significance, this unmentioned belief, socially beaten into us since birth that if we’re not the best at something, then we don’t matter.

We’re status-obsessed. Our culture is built around achievement, production and being exceptional. Therefore comparing ourselves and attempting to out-do one another has infiltrated our social relationships as well. Who can slam the most beers first? Who can get reservations at the best restaurant? Who knows the promoter to the club? Who dated a girl on the cheerleading squad? Socializing becomes objectified and turned into a competition. And if you’re not winning, the implication is that you are not important and no one will like you.


Unless you have cancer or something equally dire, the health care system in the US sucks. The World Health Organization ranked the US 37th in the world for health care, despite the fact that we spend the most per capita by a large margin.

The hospitals are nicer in Asia (with European-educated doctors and nurses) and cost a tenth as much. Something as routine as a vaccination costs multiple hundreds of dollars in the US and less than $10 in Colombia. And before you make fun of Colombian hospitals, Colombia is 28th in the world on that WHO list, nine spots higher than us.

A routine STD test that can run you over $200 in the US is free in many countries to anyone, citizen or not. My health insurance the past year? $65 a month. Why? Because I live outside of the US. An American guy I met living in Buenos Aires got knee surgery on his ACL that would have cost $10,000 in the US… for free.

But this isn’t really getting into the real problems of our health. Our food is killing us. I’m not going to go crazy with the details, but we eat chemically-laced crap because it’s cheaper and tastes better (profit, profit). Our portion sizes are absurd (more profit). And we’re by far the most prescribed nation in the world AND our drugs cost five to ten times more than they do even in Canada (ohhhhhhh, profit, you sexy bitch).

In terms of life expectancy, despite being the richest country in the world, we come in a paltry 38th. Right behind Cuba, Malta and the United Arab Emirates, and slightly ahead of Slovenia, Kuwait and Uruguay. Enjoy your Big Mac.


The United States is a country built on the exaltation of economic growth and personal ingenuity. Small businesses and constant growth are celebrated and supported above all else — above affordable health care, above respectable education, above everything. Americans believe it’s your responsibility to take care of yourself and make something of yourself, not the state’s, not your community’s, not even your friend’s or family’s in some instances.

Comfort sells easier than happiness. Comfort is easy. It requires no effort and no work. Happiness takes effort. It requires being proactive, confronting fears, facing difficult situations, and having unpleasant conversations.

Comfort equals sales. We’ve been sold comfort for generations and for generations we bought: bigger houses, separated further and further out into the suburbs; bigger TV’s, more movies, and take-out. The American public is becoming docile and complacent. We’re obese and entitled. When we travel, we look for giant hotels that will insulate us and pamper us rather than for legitimate cultural experiences that may challenge our perspectives or help us grow as individuals.

Depression and anxiety disorders are soaring within the US. Our inability to confront anything unpleasant around us has not only created a national sense of entitlement, but it’s disconnected us from what actually drives happiness: relationships, unique experiences, feeling self-validated, achieving personal goals. It’s easier to watch a NASCAR race on television and tweet about it than to actually get out and try something new with a friend.

Unfortunately, a by-product of our massive commercial success is that we’re able to avoid the necessary emotional struggles of life in lieu of easy superficial pleasures.

Throughout history, every dominant civilization eventually collapsed because it became TOO successful. What made it powerful and unique grows out of proportion and consumes its society. I think this is true for American society. We’re complacent, entitled and unhealthy. My generation is the first generation of Americans who will be worse off than their parents, economically, physically and emotionally. And this is not due to a lack of resources, to a lack of education or to a lack of ingenuity. It’s corruption and complacency. The corruption from the massive industries that control our government’s policies, and the fat complacency of the people to sit around and let it happen.

There are things I love about my country. I don’t hate the US and I still return to it a few times a year. But I think the greatest flaw of American culture is our blind self-absorption. In the past it only hurt other countries. But now it’s starting to hurt ourselves.

So this is my lecture to my alcoholic brother — my own flavor of arrogance and self-absorption, even if slightly more informed — in hopes he’ll give up his wayward ways. I imagine it’ll fall on deaf ears, but it’s the most I can do for now. Now if you’ll excuse me, I have some funny cat pictures to look at.

Courages and Belief

All of us have dreams, things we want to achieve in life. So often that we believe that we can almost obtain anything we want to have in life. But in reality it doesn’t happen just like that. When you visualize something you want in life, it seems easier to obtain them than in real one. In real life, your hope become a disappointment. Many of us lack of courageous and belief that we can fight it till the end. We only picture ourselves all the good things we want to obtain, but we seldom prepare ourselves with a “plan B”. I believe we all have a talent inside us, but now, I believe that talent alone is never enough.

I read “Maxwell Daily Reader by John C Maxwell” almost everyday (bought them last year and I stopped reading it till June’13. Lol. Trying to read them everyday now. I came to a page “Leadership needs courage” yesterday and i would like to share it on my WordPress today. So, how do we actually develop the leadership in us ? The answer is easy, start from small. There is saying “thousand miles start from the first step”. If we don’t take the first step, we will never reach our destination. Same thing goes to leadership. Many successful people start everything from scratch, the hardship they endured can’t be seen by people before they become success, I’m sure that their successful doesn’t come in a day, but they consistently build their small success and bring them to big success. By starting something small, you learnt responsibility and become more and more confidence when you succeed with the things you have done. If you don’t discipline yourself and not confidence enough, I believe nobody will ever want to follow you, that’s what I’m saying.

To develop the guts and boost the confidence in us, there are few things we need to keep them in mind :
1. My belief is stronger than my fear
2. Vision is clearer than doubt
3. Spiritual conscious over popular opinion
4. Integrity is solid than being over protective
5. High discipline over the desire for fun
6. Aggressive and unsatisfying condition rather than status quo condition
7. Steady calmness over panic
8. Risk-taker over a comfort-zone personal
9. The right move is better than a rationalization
10. The desire to reach the highest potential in a person than to be easily satisfied.

Judgmental Attitude

I have been observing family, friends, strangers and every kind of human being behavior. I found something in fun in most people. We are all judgmental. Be it purposely or unintentionally, good or bad, we judge from the very first time we see something, or even someone without knowing them well.

I kinda dislike myself when I know my mind whispering me exactly “something” when I see new thing or even new person. I know that is not right to do, but that has been programmed in our mind. It’s a sub-conscious thing. My family, my friends, my buddies, my lovers, I perceived different view from each one of them towards me. I know I’m a different type of guy through their eyes. I know they would see me as a “someone” when I did certain thing to them. But this is what our society is. People judge from how someone talk, dress but not from what they did to others. Judging a book by its cover is absolutely not a good deed, and that’s totally shameful. We judge others but not ourselves…

Judging people normally connected to personalities. A person whose personality like to compare themselves to other’s people, tend to judge more than those are not. It might be a sense of insecurity why they compare themselves to others. They  will find thousands of reasons to bring the others down by judging that person or tell the people around them. I have seen these, trust me. And I don’t buy it when someone is telling me about other people’ bad if i don’t see it myself. I have friends who like to judge people and tell about the other’s bad behind, and I’m trying to keep my distance with them. Friends and surrounding make who you are. So, try to befriend with people who are constructive and not destructive.

I read a book, it says that there are 3 elements of personality. First, private personality. It’s our thoughts, feeling, fantasies, ambitious, talent that rounded up this personality. Second, public personality. A personality where you create for yourself and how you want others to see you. And the last is attributed personality, means how others really see you. For me, Private personality are obvious most of the time and that normally reflected on the attributed personality. Most people will be cautious with their public personality. They try to do something, to prove something to the others that they are someone, or something. That’s a very wrong concept. That’s what makes people judge you and you start to judge others too. My concept is, spare more time developing your private personality. Be the person you want to be, do the things you love, develop your own talent, note down and chase your dream. It is not important how people see in you, what matters is how you see yourself.

So,  how do I actually stay fair and try not to judging? I just ignore. Ignore works best for me I think. Even though I was told that I’m being insensitive or too cold towards thing, but it just work best for me. Ignore doesn’t mean you don’t care, you just need to show you care in the correct way. And being sensitive doesn’t mean good. You will see many people on the road would laugh at a person who falls down, but you don’t see many who helps those fall. That’s what I’m saying…  Being non-judgmental isn’t an easy thing to do, but certainly there are some ways to control yourself from being judging. I would normally ask myself, “What if I were him/her? What would I expect people to do on me?”


End of a Friendship


An insincere and evil friend is more
to be feared than a wild beast;
a wild beast may wound your body,
but an evil friend will wound your mind.
– The Buddha

It’s true. I made an Australian friend two years ago. Added him for quite some time and been keeping in touch from time to time for the past two years. I went to Singapore to meet him two months ago as he is making a tour in Asia for half year. Before he came, he actually scanned the guys living in my city through a mobile gay apps. He found my friend, and I introduced them to know each other.

Things were going great when we both met and hung out. My friend, Ethan, is actually quite a nice guy. He has a lot of guys waiting for him to reply on messengers. David was one of them. I can tell that David has a crush on him.  I was trying to arrange them both to meet, and hoping they both will get closer. I told David that there won’t be any sex between him and me during our stay in Singapore. He didn’t agree to it. Turned out, really no sex between us when we both slept on the same bed.

He thought that that bothers me a lot. Truth is, I really don’t care about it. I took him as a friend, that’s all. Last month, he sent me a whatsapp, “Did you tell Ethan anything so that he doesn’t reply me?”

I was stunned for a while and offended at the same time. Aren’t friends supposed to trust each other? And we haven’t been in touch for a while, yet the first message I received wasn’t a “Hi” as expected. I was really angry and feeling not being “respect” as a friend. In the end, I told him that he isn’t my friend’s type and my friend wasn’t interested in him at all, which I have been keeping it to myself from hurting him directly. He is overrated himself, that’s what I told him. As soon as I check back on my facebook, he already deleted me there. He sent me a text saying thank you for the friendship and he has no concern left for me.

Well, what can I say? I hate it ends just like that, but time flows, people go. I have to accept the fact that I lost a friend, and he chose to leave me. I’m not a good guy either, but I kinda think I don’t need a friend with so much drama and not understanding. And removing me from his facebook, that’s kinda a relieve for me. Honestly. He chose a guy he barely know a month and deserted a friend he knew for two years.

A friendship that can end never really began. – Publilius Syrus

It is far better to be alone, than to be in bad company.- George Washington

I won’t miss you. I will miss who I thought you were.- Anonymous

A hundred buck for a dinner

Dears, please be patient and read the whole story.
SON: “Daddy, may I ask you a question?”
DAD: “Yeah sure, what is it?”
SON: “Daddy, how much do you make an hour?”
DAD: “That’s none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?”
SON: “I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?”
DAD: “If you must know, I make $100 an hour.”
SON: “Oh! (With his head down).
SON: “Daddy, may I please borrow $50?”
The father was furious.
DAD: “If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behavior.”

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy’s questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think:
Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $ 50 and he really didn’t ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy’s room and opened the door.

DAD: “Are you asleep, son?”

SON: “No daddy, I’m awake”.
DAD: “I’ve been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier. It’s been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here’s the $50 you asked for.”

The little boy sat straight up, smiling.
SON: “Oh, thank you daddy!”
Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

DAD: “Why do you want more money if you already have some?”

SON: “Because I didn’t have enough, but now I do.

“Daddy, I have $100 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.”
The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness. It’s just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $100 worth of your time with someone you love? If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family and friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family.

Some things are more important.


Dear Diary,


Think back of what happened on my 2012, I realized that it was a year with not much happening. Many things happened and sadness took place, but I guess I still managed to face all of them with brave and smile. Life is full of obstacles and test, and I believed all what happened in the past will definitely bring a better me in future…


It wasn’t a hard year after all. Business merged for almost a year now. I learned the basic things about starting up business and keep it going, also learned how to differ the relationship between business partners and friendship. It wasn’t easy, but it’s fun. It’s fun that I could notice and study human behavior more and understanding them better. I always thought that I have a not bad temper, but I was wrong. I have my impatient side and annoying crazy side. I just know how to control them well, but it caused me stressed. Lol


I made a bunch of good gay friends. I’m not saying they are the best one, but they are very nice guys until now. Human keeps changing, I can’t say what changes would happen this year but living it well and keep it going and learning all the way is what important. I observed the people surrounding me, my family, relatives, buddies, friends, guys, girls, gays, lesbians… Human could change in any minute, it’s the truth.


End of the year 2012, exact date of 31st Dec, Was the most dramatic day I had on 2012. Both my gay friend, had a breakup. R is deep in love with W. W is a discreet guy whose family owns a hotel and restaurant here in my city. R moved to Batam from Surabaya for work and new life. The relationship ended up badly, I had to separate them on this very day under the rain in front of the house where R stays. It was heavily rain, all three of us ended up wet and R climbed up to the car and refused to let W go. Neighbors definitely saw us, it was embarrassing and apparently, I shouldn’t have involved. Small fight took place, and it was heartbreaking to see how R reacted. He even went to W’s hotel and restaurant and told everyone that W fucked him. R used to be a very obedient and nice guy, but it was scary seeing what he was capable of when he lost his love. All of us aware of what happened, my gay friends and I stop being friend with R and slowly, we lost contact with him. From what I heard, he left and went back to his family last month. That was the most dramatic moment I ever had so far from gay relationship. Violence and revenge will never be able to settle problems, it would only hurt the people surrounding you, your loved ones, and yourself.


Starts from 2013, time flies past. It’s March already now. It was just like a blink for two months to past. Sometimes I feel I wasted my time for nothing, sometimes I feel what I do now is exactly why I came back for my family. My mom and I are arguing sometimes. I hate the fact that I did it, but maybe it’s for her good. We shouldn’t have interfered in other people’s problem too much. As she ages older, I realized that she has more fear and feel insecure time after time. Thinking about it again, it was so inconsiderate of me arguing things with her again and again.


According to Feng Shui Master, Snake year of 2013 will definitely bring me more luck. I was warned that I should save money. Love might come anytime so I need to prepare myself for it (I have been waiting like thousand years!!). lol. I need to plan well for myself in this 2013 and be ready for more tests this year. I hate the fact that I have been doing gym for more than a year and I’m still in no shape. That’s devastating. I have been doing nothing in the gym but visiting, that’s the reason why I failed. Yeah, no excuses. My first project would be planning my gym schedule starting from morning. Second project, building my assets. Rather than only working hard on my job right now, it’s better for me to focus with what I want to build and achieve. I guess it’s more encouraging and bring more motivation and trigger me to find more money. I gotta write this down too. Thirdly, a better me.I might not be able to travel much this year, but I have a plan. I wanted to help childrens and experience life. End of this year, I will go to somewhere and stay in an orphanage for few days. I’m not sure with I can help, but that’s one of my resolution this year. The forth project, fall in love. I feel lonely but I know I’m not alone all the time. I just need someone to share my life with and someone who can share with me his life too. It’s okay if it’s not a very crazy romantic things, simple words and action that melts my heart will do. J


So, here is my four big projects this year :

  1. Get myself in shape
  2. Focus in a bigger plans and goals, go for it
  3. Experience the orphanage life and understand the kids
  4. Fall in Love



Another True Story Inspiration – Tao Kae Noi

At the age of 16 –  he is an online game addict

At the age of 17 – a chestnut seller helper

At the age of 18 – His family migrate and left him a debt sum of 40 Million Baht (1.3 Million USD)

At the age of 19 – He created fried-seaweed “Tao Kae Noi” sold in 3000 stores of 7-eleven franchise stores

At the age of 26, He becomes top snacks producer in Thailand, whose income 800 Million Baht yearly (26 Million USD yearly) with 2000 staff under him.

What the hell am I doing now? lol

He is non-other than Top Aitthiphat Kulapopngvanich aka Top. At his earlier age, he dropped out from school due to incapability to catch up his studies because he plays online game too often. He sells his online game weapons to his online-gamers and earn extra income. He learned  how to make money with his hobbies. Soon after, as it is an illegal thing to do online, his online account has been blocked many times by the server. With his saving, he found new business opportunity to sell DVD players. Later, he found out that all the dvds player are fake branded and his savings being duped by the others. At this point, he realized the importance of studies and knowledge. What made things worse was his family bankruptcy.His family had no choice to chose to move to China while Top struggling to make his own way surviving in Thailand. Tried to sell chestnut with his uncle, set up a stand in local mall. He learnt his way making a living by resourcing and observing his surrounding. Finding a good location to set-up, sell and promote. 

Success doesn’t come easily. He went through difficult time before he found an inspiration from his ex-lover. His ex gave him a piece of seaweed for him, and he saw the chances. He re-created the dried-fried-seaweed which sells to most convenience stores in Thailand and I found them few years back then in Singapore and Indonesia. Top’s mom told him, “Something will come near you while something will go far from you”. His ex-lover left him because he was too focused on business and neglected his lover. 

Nothing comes easily. Sometimes in order to gain some, you have to lose some. I do understand this sentence well. No pain, no gain. 



All the way up Top. I’m right behind you.. I hope. lol

My top 10 movies in 2012

I picked up this habit starting last year. Make a list of my top 10 movies of the year.  I watched not less than 30 movies this year, excluded dvd series and television series. So making the hit of my favorites list for last year movies is quite a headache. It would be much easier for me if I’m choosing 15 from all the movies I had watched.

Eventually, I chose my top 10 lists… based on the story lines (my priority), the moral of the movies, the errs and contradictions I had with the movies, the roles and how deep the movies left the impressions after several months. So I made my choices (no rank order)

1. Underworld (Awakening)
2. 21 Jump Street
3. The Lady
4. Madagascar 3
5. Resident Evil 5 (Retribution)
6. The Amazing Spiderman
7. Step Up 4
8. Premium rush
9. Life of Pi
10. Expendables 2

Honestly, I chose my top 10 for almost two weeks though.. Since dec 2012 till today, 8th January 2013. It wasn’t an easy choice. But I have no doubt with those top 10. If you were me, I’m pretty sure you would remember most of the story line for those movies. There were no doubt with the movies effect, the moral, the contradiction point and overall.

At first, I thought Resident Evil 5 wouldn’t make to my top 10 list of year 2012 when I learnt that Silent Hill will be released on the same year. Turned out, I expected too much from Silent Hill. I’m expecting myself to at least “Shocked”, or “jumped” while watching Silent Hill. If you have watched both movies, I know you would still remember how you were “shocked” from the beginning of the movie from Resident Evil 5. So, No doubt it’s in my top list.  😉

Apart from Silent Hill, my top 12-20 movies which almost made it to my favorites movies would be : Battleship, The Looper, Taken 2, The Bourne Legacy, The Hobbit, Brave, Batman-Dark Knight Rises, The Raid, Twilight saga- The Breaking Dawn.

Top 20 told.. xoxo.. psst.. supposed to be 10 but too many nice movies last year! I couldn’t resist but to share with you guys!

2011 – I had 30% Chinese Movies, 70% Western movies
2012 – 100% Western Movies. No nice Chinese Movies on 2012. We will see if CZ12 by Jackie Chan will make my top 10 in 2013. See you in a year

*Wink 😉